what lies in true courage-

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

ok, lets start simple. oops, sorry i can't case its just way too complicated.
jeez, okay these are to-well you know who you are.
1st thing 1st,
i'm not being disrespectfull or anything, i'm just voicing out what i could'nt during the 'trashing' (which i did NOT do the talking...)

#1- the international bazzar
okay, we're really sorry that we were gone for so long, but there was a reason to it. me, teresa and wei ting went to buy some foods and drinks, and when we were on the way back, it stated pouring VERY heavily and then, we were deciding wheather or not to go back and we thought that if we went back, we'll be complately drenced to the bone nad you ma'am zul won't want that happaning right?! so we decided to wait for the rain to like be less heavy or a light shower or something b4 we go back.and when we went back, we offered you food seeing that you were working since morning. BUT, you ma'ams didn't want it! so, we had to like stuff ourselves. then, when we were about to leave, teresa had alredy informed someone that we were leaving, we even said 'BYE MA'AMs' but you seemed to to ignore us and we thot that you were pissed at us and was ignoring us! okay, b4 that, we're very sorry that we were slacking and all. we really regret doin that, serious. pls except our apologies...

#2- the power abusing bullshit
okay, we know that the only reason you appointed us was because of lack of manpower and that we were responsible ppl and all but when you said we abused our power, i was like 'excuse me! like when?!' we for one, do not think that in any point if time we had abused our power. we only taught the less experienced ones a few pointers and as the external log. i am worried that the flag raisers will do the wrong thing so i try to give as much pointers as possible. maybe the ppl who gave that complaint that we were abusing our power, just misunderstood us. and believe me, i'm saying this after reflecting alot. and , i had asked some ppl, whom i'm not mentioning, if they thought tht we were abusing our power and they were like, 'WHAT?! no!' so don't go jumping to conclusions just because of one pathetic view.

#3- the 'don't want to bother the rest' rubbish
right, so, you say that you did not wan't to 'bother' the rest so you just asked the comm. members t ogo for the bazzar. firstly, we three have been for alot of the activities and we try to do our best in all we do. and its not as if we don't have tuition or anything you know! obviously when you suddenly call and ask us to go, of course we have to arrange with our parents 1st! do you think that we have alot of tome?! well, sorry, we don't! we have been diligently doing all we can for red cross, so do NOT assume that we hate red cross or that we want it to close down. we really love red cross, the ppl in it and the things we do, like footdrill.and after we did so many things for red cross, cancelled so many of our tuitions etc. etc, we thought, oh yes, i can finally study in peace, but guess what because you 'don't want to bother the rest' WHO HAVE BEEN SITTING ON THEIR ASSES WHILE WE WORK LIKE CRAZY!, YOU CALL US! WHAT? HAVEN'T WE SPENT ALL OUR TIME ON RED CROSS ALREDY?! TO THE EXTEND THAT WE CANT STUDY?! i'm serious, you are just SOO lucky i only failed 3 subjects this year, or else my mom will MAKE me quit red cross. and i love red cross and i don't want to quit it, so nowadays, ihave tuition every single day except traing day, tuesday and Sunday! my mom actually wanted me to have tuition on sun too but thankfully, my tuition techer object saying that i have to rest. i am really really tired. i don't mind doing things and going for things but just don't take us for granted. we can't always be at your beck-and-call. we are not your PERSONEL SERVANT!

#4-what we call 'cliques'
when you said that we have cliques, i don't disagree. true we have cliques, but so do they! i mean, we're not racist trust me i have friends who are indian, malay, eurasion and all. in the real world, give me an example where there are no cliques in any job. you see it all around you, even in offices, ppl have cliques, those who they are more COMFORTABLE with. like, if you don't feel comfortable with sm1 and you don't trust that person, you won't go around telling them about yourself would you? okay, now, get up, go to your parents, ask them if ther are certain ppl who hang out together in their office. believe me, most likely, their answer would be yes.ther are cliques everywhere and you can't tell ppl just like that to go be comfortable with some1 they rarely see! i mean, the only time when we can see each other, is during red cross, and if the person does not come for training, how do you expect us to be so frienly with them? when they don't participate in activities, we won't be able to bond very much you know?!oh ya, and we asked the other batch mates if we were more united then b4, they said 'TOTALLY'/'ALOT MORE', so like make sure you know what you are talking about b4 you actually do something.and, btw, YOU havee cliques too. so look at yourself b4 you talk of others. you are IN NO POSITION TO SAY THAT!

#5- the 'i don't want to come for training cause they don't talk to me' lameness
do you know that some times certain subjects are meant to be discussed with different people? like, you don't go up to your parants and talk about things like rock concerts and all right?you don't tell your friends things that concern your family and family matters right? so, some times you talk to your senior for ADVICE. they trust that you will tell them the right thing and all. some times somethings are just not meant to be discussed with your friends in case it would make you look bad or something.so, don't say that the other batch mates are 'scared' of us, so they don't want to talk to us.and like i said DON'T GO JUMPING INTO CONCLUSIONS WITH ONLY 'EVIDENCE' FROM ONE 'WITNESS/VICTIM'.

i have loads more to say, but i'll continue tomorrow.

sayo-

satoko hiroyuki

{/Tuesday, September 12, 2006}
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